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Sunday, February 11th, 2007
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step out the front door
like a ghost into the fog
where noone notices the contrast
of white on white
and in between the moon and you
the angels get a better view
of the crumbling difference
between wrong and right
and i walk in the air
between the rain
and through myself and back again
where? i dont know
maria says she's dieing,
and through the door i hear her crying
why
i don't know
round here
we always stand up straight
round here
something radiates
maria came from nashville
with a suitcase in her hand
she said she'd like to meet a boy who looks like elvis
and she walks along the edge
of where the ocean meets the land
just like she's walking on a wire
in the circus
she parks her car outside of my house
takes her clothes off
says she's close to understanding jesus
she knows she's more than just a little
misunderstood
she has trouble acting normal when she's nervous
round here
we're carving out our names
round here
we all look the same
round here
we talk just like lions
but we sacrifice like lambs
round here
she's slipping through me hands
sleeping children better run like the wind
out of the lightning dream
mama's little baby better get herself in
out of the lightning
she says it's only in my head
she says shh
i know
it's only in my head
but the girl on the car in the parking lot
says man you should try to take a shot
can't you see my walls are crumbling
then she looks up at the building
says she's thinking of jumping
she says she's tired of life
she must be tired of something
round here
she's always on my mind
round here
hey man
we've got lots of time
round here
we're never sent to bed early
and nobody makes us wait
round here we stay up
very very,
very very late
i can't see nothing
nothing
round here
will you catch me if i'm falling
catch me if i'm falling
catch me cuz i'm falling down on you
i said i'm under the gun
around here
i'm innocent i'm under the gun
around here
and i cant see nothing
nothing
round here
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Friday, January 26th, 2007
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Friday, November 24th, 2006
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Sabrina, winner of the most inappropriate award of 2006, and forever after that.
sabirw2001 (7:26:50 PM): i am going to hate 2007
tre KEWL 20 30 (7:27:57 PM): well i already hate 2006
tre KEWL 20 30 (7:28:00 PM): i bet you can't top mine
sabirw2001 (7:32:38 PM): dismissed from a job three days after starting and i still have not been paid for those three days; i didn't see my boyfriend for over five months since neither of us could afford to travel out to see each other, i crashed my car into the back of some lady's mercedes a month after buying the car, one of my best friends has turned into bridezilla and will probably never apologize for all the crap that she has put me through already, and then all the crap and drama that trying to get all my stuff together and shoulder the burden of my pr seminar group's work so that i could graduate...um yeah, that probably doesn't top yours but for me it's not been easy,
sabirw2001 (7:33:21 PM): and please never mention any of what i just said...i don't need everyone knowing all my business
tre KEWL 20 30 (7:33:40 PM): well...
tre KEWL 20 30 (7:34:18 PM): my dad died. i lived with him. i have to move. i basically lose any financial backing i have to cover slight expenses for school. annnd finding a place to live and getting out on my own in the next few months.
sabirw2001 (7:34:40 PM): ok
sabirw2001 (7:35:27 PM): i'm sorry
sabirw2001 (7:38:18 PM): for what it's worth, things do get better. one of my sister's friends lost her dad about three years ago. She's had alot of bullshit with her mom-i'm not sure when they spoke last. But she is getting through it.
tre KEWL 20 30 (7:38:52 PM): yea, 3 years later
sabirw2001 (7:39:23 PM): three years later, she is working in a job that makes her happy, and is in a healthy relationship.
sabirw2001 (7:39:31 PM): the first year sucked
sabirw2001 (7:39:41 PM): she lost him shortly before christmas
sabirw2001 (7:40:53 PM): I am not sure if it was a heart attack for natural reasons, or if it was an overdose. But what I was told was that it was a heart attack.
sabirw2001 (7:41:59 PM): and she was in a couple bad relationships after that. there was one who completley drained her emotionally.
(At this point, me and john sehi decided to go wawa. I went idle in 5 minutes from now)
sabirw2001 (7:43:15 PM): she was coaching girl's basketball, but had to give that up. But she has been working and been happy for over a year.
sabirw2001 (7:47:48 PM): her name is jenn...she's on myspace
sabirw2001 (7:48:03 PM): do you want me to say something to her?
sabirw2001 (7:55:54 PM): jenn's page if you want to talk to someone who has been through this let me know and I can see about getting in contact with her. if not, no big. But for the record, the last time I saw her, she was smiling.
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Monday, November 20th, 2006
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Two great European narcotics,
Alcohol and Christianity,
I know which one I prefer
We never went to church,
Just get on with work and sometimes things'll hurt,
But it's hit me since you left us,
And it's so hard not to search.
If you were still about,
I'd ask you what I'm supposed to do now,
I just get a bit scared,
Every now,
Hope I made you proud.
On your birthday when mom passed the forks and spoons,
I put my head on the table I was so distraught with you,
You tidied your things into the bin,
The more poorly you grew,
So there's nothing of yours to hold or to talk to.
Put your hand up and interrupt the conversation with a, but..
People say I interrupt people with the same look.
Sometimes I think so hard I can't remember how your face looked,
Started reading about dreams in your favourite book.
Panic and pace when I can't see the right thing to do.
You'd be scratching your head through the best advice you knew.
And I feel sad I can't hear you reciting it through,
I miss you dad but I've got nothing to remind me of you
[Chorus]
I needed a break when your book about dreams was taken,
I needed to pray or see a priest that day,
I needed to leave this trade and just heave it away.
But I cleaned up my place like you so I could see things straight.
I never cared about God when life was sailin' in the calm,
So I said I'd get my head down and I'd deal with the ache in my heart,
And for that if God exists I'd reckon he'd pay me regard,
Mom says me and you are the same from the start.
I guess than you did leave me something to remind me of you,
Everytime I interrupt someone like you used to,
When I do something like you you'll be on my mind or through,
'Cause I forgot you left me behind to remind me of you.
[Chorus x2]
But you you still tell me how you didn't know what to do even now,
And then I'm not so scared somehow,
'Cause I know that you'd be proud.
I got a good one for you dad,
I'm gonna see a priest, a Rabbi and a Protestant clergyman,
You always said I should hedge my bets.
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Wednesday, July 12th, 2006
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Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
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Advanced Global Personality Test Results | Take Free Advanced Global Personality Testpersonality tests by similarminds.comStability results were moderately high which suggests you are relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic. Orderliness results were moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive. trait snapshot: introverted, secretive, messy, depressed, does not like leadership, somewhat nihilistic, observer, does not make friends easily, unassertive, feels invisible, feels undesirable, hates large parties, does not like to stand out, leisurely, suspicious, submissive, abstract, unpredictable, intellectual, likes rain, likes the unknown, negative, weird, not a risk taker, unadventurous, avoidant, strange
Awesome, 70% peter pan complex. "we'll think happy thoughts".
And the snapshot isnt that appealing. i didn't score this bad last time i took it.
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Ok, my brother is giving me 4 tickets to go see Dave Matthew's Band.
Now, the only catch is that i need to find 3 people to go with. And the tickets would be 50 bucks a piece.
And also i would have to find one person who can drive. Not just can, is able to legally drive.
The concert is june 27 (tuesday) at 7 pm at tweeter center. So, come on and help me out. First 3 to reply to me.
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Making another storyline concept set of lyrics. Feedback welcome.
It goes description, dialogue, description, dialogue (in a sense).
If you want i'll explain what's goin on. A few of the things are somewhat obscure, but not that hard.
Line of black processes throught the corridor
idol carried into center view
postmortem celebration
ineffective on these certain few
wipe that tear rose petal staind
with the shedding of this feeling
what is this
that's going on
is it what i'm thinking
can it be possible
what am i to do now
if this is real what am i now
porcelain dolls stare blankly forward
at the sacrifice bestowed
against his will, against all judgment
noone knows except for them, behold
those few jaded figures, amongst the congregation
of this corpse, no being left here
our job done and obligation
brings us back
he shouldn't have died in vain (vanity got the best of you)
the way we told him to (we told you so)
nooone could figure out why he didn't listen
to a word we spoke
so let us say one last praise (why don't we just say good riddance)
to a friend, a brother (a nuisance who deserved it)
repeat
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| Music: | scar the armada - adah. |
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i kno who i am
but who are you
i will embody envy in you
if you embody wraith
i kno i must
carry this through til the end
if its mine or yours
i must see this through
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Wednesday, May 17th, 2006
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so i didnt get hot topic.
that leads me to either working for a jackass.... oooooor looking for another job. lets see how that works out.
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ITunes questionairre
how many songs?
1879 5 days, 3 hours, 37 minutes, 53 seconds
sort by song title (first and last):
#41 - Dave Matthew's Band
Yule Shoot your Eye Out - Fall out boy
sort by time (longest and shortest):
longest: the story so far-new found glory (26:36)
shortest: douche bigalow - nick swardson (from Grandma's Boy) (:05)
top five most played songs:
early sunsets over monroeville - MCR (80)
The Light and the Glass - Coheed and Cambria (75)
Existentialism on Prom Night - Straylight Run (74)
Demolition Lovers - MCR (73)
New American Classic - Taking Back Sunday (68)
first song that comes up on shuffle:
Demolition Lovers
find "sex," how many songs come up?
2
find "death," how many songs come up?
11
find "love," how many songs come up?
61
Go to your media player and put it on shuffle. Say the following questions aloud and after each one press play. Use the song title as the answer to the question.
What do you think of me, itunes?
One Song Glory
Will I have a happy life?
Simple Design
What do my friends really think of me?
Go On Get Out of Here
Do people secretly lust after me?
Never Right
How can I make myself happy?
Home Away From Here
What should I do with my life?
Bite To Break Skin
Why must life be so full of pain?
Santa Fe
Will I ever have children?
Mutt
Will I die happy?
Tempest
Can you give me some advice?
My Own Worst Enemy
What do you think happiness is?
High Speed
What's your favorite fetish?
The Pros and Cons of Breathing
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not stealing that stalker thing... but this quote is too good to pass up.
Call to the police
"Hello look this is a bit embarassing, I have a stalker who keeps trying to climb over our perimeter fencing and they seem to have become impaled on it again. Could you please send someone over to check it out? Thanks."
notice the "AGAIN"
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BLADE the series, starting in june on SPIKE TV...
looks disappointing.
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where's my head at...
that's what i'm really thinking right now.
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Wednesday, May 10th, 2006
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All grades in
Acc - A-
Marketing - C
Manag Acc - B+
Fin Acc - B-
Stat - A
Rel/Eng - C+
3.04 for the semester
3.18 culmulative
about a 3.45 for major
and 3.2 for minor
Not bad... at least i think so.
*to be edited when the calculator does it rather than myself
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I'm pushing a 3.25 so far, with 2 more grades to go, and one of them will eventually fuck it up.
and somehow i got an A- in accounting??? how did that happen?
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